As a thoughtful person from the grassroots level, over the past 20 years, I often feel curious about the relationships between people in reality, the degree of those relationships, their mutual perceptions, their views of me, the information gap between us, and what I fear the most is when others are pondering, calculating, and researching together, while I am left out, even when the group is united, and I am on my own.

These thoughts have accompanied me in any environment and at any stage since I was a child. And in fact, I didn't really care about these things at every stage of every environment, although I didn't have money, I didn't have a background, But I'm also barefoot and not afraid to wear shoes, to be honest, there's nothing to lose, reading, what others think of me doesn't affect how I learn, it doesn't affect my roll score, and even have a good relationship with anyone, I have more friends, this is what affects the roll score, But survival and making money are different, and if you don't mix well in the unit, it is equivalent to a death sentence in your career, so before I entered the society, I think I've always been more withdrawn and looked down on people since I was a child, and although I wasn't qualified to look down on people, I was still like this, even when I only had 3,000 yuan in my pocket. I predict that I will not mix well in the future, so I can't rely on my own career, my own career, so I entered the money-making market relatively early, doing some things to make a little money, but the ability is limited, compared with other people's money, it's really a drop in the bucket, compared with other people's big bosses, a hair on the cow is not counted, at this time I have some accumulation, but even more inferiority, because too little, my parents, my grandparents, decades have not worked hard, resulting in a gap between me and others. I'm very, very hard, but it doesn't matter, I have nothing, I won't go back to poverty, I don't have a dime, I can't do some, take off Kong Yiji's gown, the poor are born with a high sense of morality, and their skin is thin, which is very limiting to people's success, when I first saw a very good figure in Beijing, Shanghai, accompanied by the piercing roar of the sports car engine, galloping past me, all reminded me, I am a poor man, I am a poor cub, why am I? It will exist in this world because of my poor dad, he wants to fuck it, he accidentally shot me out, that's all, he didn't think about what to prepare for me before he shot me, how to train me, my dad has a famous saying, she once said to me, people can marry a daughter-in-law without money, that's called ability, this sentence happened on April 25, 18 years, when I was under 20 years old, I remembered this sentence, which means that I will not give you anything in the future. Well, you won't be my father in my heart, in fact, I didn't treat you as my father originally, but now I can further confirm it. So what should I do? Then I'll make money, because I'm afraid, I don't have a backing, I have to play by myself, and then I earn hundreds of thousands, and then the money is used to buy a house for my father, because he lost the previous house, and our family of five has no house to live in. Well, the follow-up is the follow-up, and it has nothing to do with the front, and then it's like this.
For all of the above, I don't think material changes matter at all, no matter how much money you spend, how much you can consume, or what you enjoy, you don't actually need to enjoy, in fact, you just need your heart to stop being afraid, no longer caring, no longer uncomfortable, That's Ok, I don't need others to evaluate me now, I'm a rich man, even if others evaluate me, I'm a poor person, I'm a person with no ability, it doesn't matter, and this is what I was most afraid of before, But now there is no passion or any ups and downs in mentality, nothing to experience. Every day is to read a book of poetry, there is no desire, there is nothing to prove, I used to want to have this, I want to have that, now I don't want anything, I feel tired with my eyes open, I used to fantasize about some richer people, some people who are very financially free, thinking that if I were him, what would I do? What will I enjoy? How will I go? Now I understand very clearly, just like Ma Yun said, he is happiest when he earns 20,000 yuan a month, in fact, he is very right, Life is just a dream, sometimes spring dreams, sometimes nightmares, good dreams, bad dreams are good, the most afraid is me like this, I have no dreams, buddy. What I want to say to others is to cherish yourself, the process of dreaming and chasing dreams, cherish your own desires, cherish your own inferiority complex, cherish the real emotions that happen to you when you are poor, and the true love of others for you, and cherish the opportunity to endure hardships and suffering , the most meaningless, the whole universe is useless, what others do and say, anyone is meaningless acting, just like the engine that has no oil in dry burning, he is fighting wits with the air, money is a bad thing, you have less, you are uncomfortable, you have more, you are more uncomfortable than uncomfortable, because you are in a vegetative state, it is better to be uncomfortable,